how much money would you spend for emotional freedom?
Apparently, emotional freedom is a thing. Not in the I have transcended human existence and now float above attachment and suffering kind of way. More like, I still feel everything... I just don't let it drive the car anymore... which is inconvenient. Because it turns out no one is actually free. Not the confident ones, not the successful ones, not the ones who look like they've figured it out on social media, or in perfectly curated conversations at dinner tables. Everyone is just slightly better at managing their internal chaos. Some are just faster at recovering, better at hiding it, or more practiced at calling it strategy instead of panic ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ✨
The funny part is we spend a lot of time trying to escape emotions, only to discover they've been quietly running background apps the entire time. You close one tab called insecurity, and three more open: comparison, validation request, please like me but make it effortless ʕ•_•ʔ
Then, what is emotional freedom even is?
Apparently, it's not never feeling triggered, never overthinking, or never caring what people think. It's more like, oh f this, it's interesting. I'm spiraling again. Anyway, let me not destroy my life over it. Very glamorous, spiritual yet disappointing ʕ•̥ᴥ•̥ʔ
I think when we have money, the financial, social, and practical freedom will be easy. But, how can one buy emotional freedom? How much money do we need to spend to achieve it? Having money does make life easier, but not equally in every dimension.
Then how do you even master emotional freedom? Because apparently, no matter the bank account, the mind still runs its own economy of,
- attention inflation
- emotional debt
- interest on old memories and
- investments in people who never asked for it (・_・;)
The irony is that the more aware you become, the less magical it feels ʕ｡•́︿•̀｡ʔ
You don't ascend. You just notice more clearly when you are reacting instead of choosing, performing instead of expressing, and, attaching instead of observing and somehow that awareness doesn't automatically make you calm. It just makes you... aware and still slightly annoOyed. Maybe that's the real joke. You don't become free from emotions, you just stop pretending they're wise advisors. They're not sages, they're just noisy passengers in the back seat who occasionally grab the wheel and say trust me, I've seen one episode of your life and I have opinions ʕ – ᴥ – ʔゝ